Trust Issues

In honor of “Valentine’s Day” I wanted to chat with all my sister girls and let you all know you are loved.

I have serious trust issues. I took my dog to the groomer the other day and the groomer said oh I’ve seen worse. While I was at the nail salon the nail technician said the same thing to her client, oh I’ve seen worse. I have a hard time believing what I hear.

“I’ve seen worse.“

“You look pretty.“

“I love you.“

”I love your hair.”

”That outfit is so cute.”

It doesn’t matter if it comes from strangers or people I’ve known my entire life. I think it may stem from me hearing my mother give compliments to later talk about the same person she complimented. I’m not really sure but I can psychoanalyze myself at a later date.

Right now I want to talk to those of you like me, the unbelievers.

Dear unbeliever,

I want you to know even if you’re woke up this morning in a bed by yourself all alone there is someone out there who loves you. It may be your child, family, friends, or a secret admirer but there’s always some love around you... even if it’s not from the person you want it to be from. Learn to embrace those who love you. Learn to love yourself. I’ve been in a toxic relationship going on five years and it’s taught me a lot about love but the most important lesson I’ve learned is that it’s ok to love a person and not need that person in your life. I only need what’s good for me. If I feel worse about myself while I’m with you or when you leave then I don’t need you. Let go of the fantasies - see situations for what they are, take off the rose colored glasses. You’re a priority not an option and should always be treated as such. The people who are meant to be in your life will be, they’ll stay and accept you and all of your imperfections. I know.. I know... so & so has the perfect life, man, family, friends... We see others and think why can’t that be me?!?! We all have that one friend that seems to have it all together or the “instastranger” that appears to have the perfect feed. What you don’t realize is that YOU may be that person to someone else. Have more confidence, don’t wait to be saved by Prince Charming save yourself. I struggle with insecurities really bad, thinking I’m overweight and just okay looking, but I realize when I add a little bit of umph (filling in my brows, mascara, lipstick) I feel a bit more confident. Therefore, I’m taking a few extra moments to spruce myself up a bit. I remember my mother NEVER left home without lipstick. LISTEN whatever makes you smile at yourself in the mirror do more of that. You’ll radiate inside and out. We are not defined by the dark circles, third boobs (underarm fat), rolls on our back, pudgy stomachs, flat butts, small breast, stretch marks, etc... I said aloud while looking in the mirror yesterday “This is how God made you so you are enough.”

We are women.

We are wonderful.

We are warriors.

We are winning.

Today and everyday I celebrate YOU, as is. Now it’s time to celebrate your own damn self!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get up, get dressed, take a selfie, talk to your self in the mirror... embrace living. We will not continue to focus on what we don’t have!

I love you with your beautiful self! Until next time sister girls... thanks for hanging in my closet.